“Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it. - Kathleen Casey Theisen quotes"
I often write late at night, its when my mind is running the most. When the thoughts wont stop, even if I try to stop them. So I have accepted this fact, another reason for this blog. A place were I can write late at night as many time in a day as I please. Or I can go weeks with out writing and it will harm no one. Ah the freedom of the internet. I love the egotistical side of blogs, the fact that they are all about you, and what you think and want and feel or don't feel. It feeds our human need for people to listen to us about us. I know I love to talk about myself, I could go on for days about me, but it would never honestly be the really meaningful stuff. The really deep stuff. It would be the facade that I let the world see, don't we all do that? Talk about our facade? I have my outer facade; natural red hair ( short so I look edgy cut it myself, so I look unique), red lipstick, Flannel, big jewelry, wayfarers, Indie band shirts. I have the world see me as a hipster, as a cool kid someone who "doesn't care", which is total BS. I care. Yes I feel safe in those articles of clothing. They are what I feel like myself in, but when people see me that is he facade they see. They don't see any deeper then that. Just like I don't see any deeper then the kid sitting next to me in my english class. Well that was before. Before I came to this realization, and saw that I needed to change this and look deeper. I started noticing different things about people that I never would have seen before. I became the Watcher of my friends, and that is then I started noticing people and everything about them. From how they have their longing looks of unrequited love to pure anger from the nice person you have ever met. I would try and tell people my findings and they would not believe me. So now I just leave them to myself, I now enjoy being the Watcher, and I have learned that my facade is not really as much of a facade as I thought it was. It is more of my shield for the other Watcher out there. -meliss
