Its hard these days. I feel so lost inside, a pain ive never know is taking over. Its new and its numbing and it hurts in a strange way. Life is taking me on such a strange trip and i wish i knew where. Things around me are in disorder, yet inside i am so calm. I so wish i could run away. Somewhere new, but ive done that time and time again. And i always end up me. Its like i cant out run me, but i dont want to live in this head. I miss my best firend, i miss the happy times, i miss so much these days. I know brighter days are to come, i just wish they could hurry up.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

Another day...

Sometimes its just too hard to miss someone. Its just better to close that door in your mind. To just move forward and not look back. Memories are just the past trying to bring you down. I'm just sad that you dont care. Thinking about everything makes my heart feel like a stone is sitting on it. People just dont understand how it feels to have your sister turn her back on you. Maybe one day things will change, but I doubt it.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

i had the most amazing anniversary.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

july 22 2012

Mae gave up on our friendship today. I am chosing to be numb about it all. Writing about it isnt an option but i know i will care about this date in the future. Man growing up sucks.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

one year ago

Aug 14th. A date burned into my brain. Last year i as at work and you texxted me telling me it was over and i deserved better...a year later i will be at work again, only this time i have found better. I think about you less and less. Dont get me wrong i would love to be stuck in a room with you so i could pick your brain, but it is not possible and thats a good thing. Idk just felt like the right time to blog.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

aug 8th

The 14th will be a year since things were called quits and i moved on. Its 6 days from that and i finally run into you. I feel like i am buzzing. I hope you saw me and thought "damn i fucked up" but sadly i doubt it.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5